Today is the day (:

take me to the sky

8:50 PM i am just gonna burn my nights swallowing all my notes down from now on till christmas comes. and i'll give myself a break during the 2 weeks holidays before school starts again. whether j1/j2, i'll still MOVE ON.
tell me how to study for econs and gp! the two subjs that i cannot go beyond a S. :/

i srsly cannot wait for chinese and OP to be over! two burdens down and i'll put my heart and soul to econs and gp. bestie let's help each other okayyy(:

hellooo friends im happy i have all of you, really(:

eileen- HELLO LEEN BESTIE you're always there to make me smile. although you're not good with words hahah but lil things you do warms my heart. (:

rachel- HELLOOO thanks for always lecturing me making sure that im always building my faith. LET'S MOTIVATE EACH OTHER AND WORK HARD. must prove that we're not stupid ahkian and ahlam!

aretha- yozzz reeeee! thanks for your simple gestures and encouragement that made my day! though you're always not with us but i know you really care for us farmers!

mingxuan- MING! (: you're one of my closest guy friends in school you know! im so glad i know you. heh although you ALWAYS kope my drinks and make fun of my cheeks, tsk!

ryan- yozzzz my pw mate! you've grown much ever since you met us, wahhaha. you have potential in dance! pw really brings us closer yeah? (:

feng- helloooo crazy lil fellow. (: thanks for your msg! and your smile in the canteen today. hahah it warms my heart for that sec. heh.

linus- eyyyy! you! you're forever smiling when i see you. hahaha!

alethea- hahah thanks for hugging me everytime i see you! work hard for retest alrightttttt. dont lose heart! you go girl, your hardwork will pay off im sure!

:D

9:59 PM CHI OP CHI OP CHI OP. - everyday routine.
*sniffsniff* im sick! flu bug is spreading around. first eileen, ming, rachel then me. :/
PW mates have beeen fun to hang out with. they make school more enjoyable i must say. they're fast learners man. taught them dance today and im so proud of you guys! ACE PW, WEEEE.

i think i've been lazing around too much. i need to study for chi and re-exam! oh yes 90% chance that there'll be re-exam or advancement! :D i hope i can do well. last chance to prove that you're not a stupid brown cow ahlam!

9:17 PM BIRTHDAY PEEPS! blood related 2nd sister, jovan and feng! :D all my loved ones!

2nd sister and jovieeee!
hello jovie you're 2 now! you're growing fast and please grow up to be a good boy. i can imagine you being so naughty and coming up to me for help instead of your parents when you're caught in trouble in school HAHAAH. you've been a joy to me jovie and you're so blessed with so many yiyis who love you very much. your xiaoyee is always loving you! (:
hello er jie! :D happy birthdayyyy! thanks for always bringing me out on weekends and making sure everything's well at home. you've been a great sister and i miss you being at home ever since you moved out! i miss you telling me about your probs at work/life at night and being your soulmate! but our sister's bonding is still there isnt it. hehh. keep growing in your faith! :D

hello fenggg! hahaha my funniest and craziest friend! even your photo also so retarded. tsk. just realised i dont have a photo with only me and you! thanks for always being a sunshine to us in school doing retarded things and make us laugh our heads offf. HAHA. but really thank you for being there as a listening ear when i needed one and always be the feng that i know of! (:

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so many october babies! celerations after celebrations makes me broke D: but happy when i see their smile! :D

i think i got a flu bug from eileen!

10:11 PM HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY EMELIA!
4 years of friendship and still counting(:

cheeros!

I FOUND THIS. rmb this day emelia?!?! omggg hahah that was like 2 years ago!



11:32 PM things that i should focus on now:

#1 OP
#2 chi A levels
#3 re-exam (if there is)
#4 improve on dance techniques and flexibility
#5 faith
#6 motivation for next year

(: (:
i like my pw group.
coming up next week: A LEVEL CHINESE + OP! D; D:

11:10 PM the moment i came online, 13 people asked for my results.
so how you tell me now how. stuuuupid brown cow why you studied so hard but never produce results!

some reflections.
thinking back, i really think i studied very hard. so my prob here is not cos i didnt study ppleeeeee (ihateitwhenpeoplethinkthatididntstudyhardenough!) maybe it's really cos im stupid or i really blanked out but to think on a positive side perhaps it's really God's plan. maybe like what elisha has said, God has a better plan for me and he knows it best.
many pple consoled me, or tried to console. appreciate that really friends, but the terrible feeling will never go away. the feeling of knowing you're at a high risk of retaining but not quite sure yet till next week is really :/ :/ TTM.
but the feeling of knowing that i've disappointed God is far more worse than that. my heart was secretly crying at the back of the lt today during chinese. some things just make my day worse. i think today is the worst day of my life so far arghhh irritating.
but it's not like it's the end of the world.
i'll move on either wayyy.(:
ms khiew made my day a lil better!

THERE'S STILL HOPE.

PS: im sorry bestie couldnt help but to blog.

10:20 PM i am very very very scared for tmr. :(
God, what if. i really really retain? will you be unhappy?
i cannot imagine myself going thru the same things again next year! :( :(
i think i cant sleep tonight.
bestie, im hereeeeeee!

11:03 AM korravee's farewell.
im gonna miss him! he was the one who helped me with my work in class. he was the one who never fails to make us laugh,class joker! still rmb he sat behind me and always make fun of me and joline! he's my going home partner! OHH there was once we walked from our school to kovan cos it was 12plus am after our class chalet and we didnt want to spend money on taxi. hahah.
sighh those were the times man.

yesterday.
korravee: felicia! i go alr ah, make sure you miss me and also must grow taller!
felicia: hahah but i stopped growing alr! of cos i'll miss you!
korravee: i dont care you must grow taller!
felicia: ahahah okkkk. i'll try.

he's my only close thai friend. you're so gonna be missed by me! :(

8:39 PM random.

i like my principal. i like his speeches. i like his charisma. i think he's very cool. i think he's the coolest principal i know so far. he gives very inspiring words which will make me think alot. the way he speaks just draws our attention and makes me wanna rmb what he has said. i think he's a christian (:
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my spacebar got prob. i dont like! cant see from my posts cos i insert extra spaces in between so that it looks read-able. but makes me type sloweerrrr.
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was reading my belovedddd bestie's blog just now and i was really nodding my head when i read some of her entries! we really have the same thoughts man bestie.(: i think partly cos we're both christians. :D i must declare my love here. I LOVE YOU AHKIAN TTM. no one can snatch her away from me!
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love - such a simple word. but it explains everything. it explains why Christ died on the cross.

one man asked: Jesus, how much do you love me?
Jesus stretched out His arms with the nails pierced through His palms and said : This much..

when i first saw this on some random postcard, i teared.
hello friends. Jesus loves you very much. (:
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i want to be more and more like Jesus.(:
Godliness MUST be coupled with contentment.
i need to make constant checklists of myself.

change my heart Oh God, make it ever new.
remind me Lord when i should stay in my place.
fixed my eyes on You and not myself.
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today i accompanied leen and rach for 5 hours before their sarawak meeting. imso niceee (:
but im so :( when mrandrew said this to them: next time dont bring your friends along. not very nice.
:( :(
nvm.(: i had fun with both besties playing monkeyyyy.
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i need to start training for nike human race!
running, anyone?
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im (:

10:10 PM :( :(
im feeling down. sad. emo. depressed. whatever that describes this face :(.
wanted to call bestie. but. i realised i dont know why am i sad.
maybe. disappointment in myself? :/

when i cry for help oh hear me Lord and hold out your hand
touch my life. still the raging storm in me.

im ashamed to face You.

1:32 AM BROTHER'S ARMOUR POP.
im proud of my bro! i think he looks very shuai in his uniform.


helloooo sergeant lam! lol.

father with daughter and son (:

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had a longggg talk with emelia last night on the phone :D
conversation was mainly about friendship.
close friends do not neccessary be tgt all the time, they are the ones whom you know will be there when you need them. (:
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sometimes, maybe, perhaps?

2:14 AM



10:11 PM HAHAHA. IM HAPPY TODAYYYYY! :D